Saturday, December 05, 2009

Today is Saturday

Daisy Mae's birthday was a celebration. We needed, for just a few hours, to remember that life is still worth celebrating, even if there is a hole in your heart. As has been a constant over the last eight days, we were surrounded by friends and family. Joe and Kate and their girls. Heidi and Bill. Christy and Peter. Joyce. Laurie and Bill, and their beautiful kids. I had a 4-year-old on my lap for awhile last night. I hope I get more of those moments. They help.

Without these friends, I would never have survived to this point. I know I wouldn't have. My family, and Steve's, have also been a constant and I am deeply grateful for them. But your friends are your friends. They choose you, and they choose to stand beside you. And I am so very, very deeply blessed to have them in my life.

Today I will see my sister. I've written about her before. She has come back, at least for now, and she is also a solace and a blessing. There have been a small number of genuinely good things to have come from losing my Bug, and that is one of them. I will not look into the future and tell you what is to come; but for today, I have a sister again, and that makes me happy.

Today is Saturday. Eight days. They seem like a blink and a lifetime, all at once. I guess that's what it's supposed to be like.

6 comments:

bhd said...

Life without a script. Thanks for coming here, for telling us. Love you!

BillnDollarBaby said...

:hug:

Ellie Creek Ellis said...

your strength continually amazes me. i'm talking about being real and honest and completely coming to terms with what you are really going through. and you're still on your feet.

today scott and i played scrabble, and it just so happened i played the words "beanie" and "bug". :o)

Anonymous said...

I remember your writing about your sister...I hope her re-entry into your life will be permanent...{{{endless hugs}}}

winter said...

*hug*

Mississippi Songbird said...

Love you